Some overdue photos

Scrolled through my camera roll and found some pictures that I skipped over because those were days when there weren't much photos taken but since they have accumulated, might as well post them altogether.

 

Mom's Birthday

Grilled fish jjang!!! And seriously, you need to try their mac n' cheese. The fries were just nice.

 Astons is like all about the amount?! Just look at how much minced beef spaghetti there is.

Afterwards, we went to some café in JEM.

The lava cake was realll chocolaty.

 

Their waffle ice cream was good. 

 Their desserts are super ex. Can't remember the exact price though, 'cos my uncle was paying for everything hahaha.

Some shots of the place for you guys to recognize since I can't remember the name.

My bro putting some swag into that cap.

 There!! MADO!

 

Korean Spicy Noodles Challenge

 Just remember to pour away the water used to cook the noodles before adding the sauce. Hahaah.

 Spiciness level: 9/10 Finished one bottle of water through this. Truly the spiciest cup noodles so far.

TIM HO WAN

 This was soooo gooddd.

 This dessert is also not to be missed!!

 The century egg porridge was also good!! Ordered like 2 servings of it for 4 people. The porridge didn't have time for a photo before it was gone.

 

ECP - Mun's bdae

 All slacking on the grass hahaah. 'Cos bdae girl haven't comeee.

 The lengths we go to take a photo.

 

 Those coconut trees literally have the getaway feel.

Reminiscing childhood. Hahaha. I'll forever be playing the pyramids.

 

 

-peace-

It's September!!

Omg guys, it's been soooooo long since I came here. Missed me? Hahaha. I guess not. In any case, I'm back. Well, the reason I've been for missing for two months was because I was wrapping up project presentations, taking a break from all the stress before exams, then exams came and left, and then came my attachments which were pretty fun!! Really enjoyed it this time round. In between my attachment I had to squeeze in dance practices which really just occupy almost 40% of my time. I swear, they occupy my time so much more this year. Like three times more.

 

That's about 70% of concrete reasons why I didn't blog.

 

The 30% left are.. uh.. excuses. Simply because I was caught up in my dramas again?? And I had late nights because of it which let me to wake up late and the cycle continues. I was also kinda frustrated because I couldn't update regularly with events and those that I have posted past few months are always dated quite far back. It left me feeling frustrated that I couldn't keep it as up-to-date as I wished, that every new post wasn't something fresh and new that happened in my life. Over time, I just started losing the motivation to come here because I wasn't meeting those expectations I set for myself. It may sound silly to you, but I can get real serious and maybe a little obsessed over stuff like this.

 

Gosh, and now that awesome feeling of sorting my thoughts out when I blog comes back and it's feeling just... awesome. It's like I can plan about things I want to blog, for instance, daily events, and something else can just pop up and.. I type it out like the previous paragraph. Letting my thoughts flow literally. Something in me just gets lifted up somehow(?) when times like this happen. I don't even know if you understand what I blog sometimes. I try to convey the feelings that I experience during an event as much as I can. Most often it's happiness, because that's the emotion that should be shared right? You don't normally see me write about events with unhappy emotions unless I do learn something from it or I want to remember it. I have the pressure of making this a happy place because the world is just - harsh. At the same time, I also want/need a space for those negative emotions. There are always times where you can't find a person that you think can listen to you when something unhappy happens.

 

For me specifically, I don't want to trouble people sometimes when it's a really busy period or, I just don't want to. And well, there's the mood and atmosphere issue. Like sometimes it just doesn't feel right to start on a specific topic. There's also the thinking-too-much issue with girls. For example, 'can I trust this person with what I want to say?' We think twice, thrice and more. Even when h2h talks start, if it's not with the right person, mood, place, time (this is subjective, meaning the feels), you just feel like you can't start breaching the topic. Is it just me or what? Because I feel that there's also different levels to h2h talks. Just, different levels of intimacy. Like, different levels of deep. How much about yourself do you actually feel you can talk to others about?

 

I think having the right person that you're really close to is the most important thing. Then nothing matters, not the place, time or maybe even mood. If you feel like it, you can just talk. Hey, when I say that the place doesn't matter, I don't mean in a crazy raving environment where you have to speak louder than your normal voice. Nope. Unless, you're fine with it, then really, nothing matters. When the person is just next to you, all you have to do is talk. A friend told me, ' it doesn't matter how long you have known a person. You can know someone for years, from childhood, but you don't have h2h talks with her. But once you meet someone you feel is right, you can have h2h talks that you don't even tell your longest friend.' It makes so much sense.

 

But sometimes, just sometimes, I can't take that step to talk about things. That's when this space becomes sort of a really personal diary where I spill things out. I want people to know, yet not really. Haha, contradicting. It's still a form of talking to someone right? Of course, I don't exactly spill EVERYTHING out because this platform is public. Unless, I'm in a rage. Usually, after blogging about some unhappy stuff, I'll find a chance to talk to someone and get things off my chest. This is just a platform to ensure that I temporarily don't go crazy from keeping things to myself. And I do get comments from friends who ask if I'm okay after they read some unhappy posts on my blog. Truly, I feel touched by them. Thank you for all of the concern, I really do appreciate it. (Keep them coming! Haahah.)

 

I do hope blogging can continue to be therapeutic for me and maybe find my own colour in blogging(?). To not be washed away among all the hype of blogging stars. People have asked if I aim to be like them, and I have thought of and tried to. Who doesn't want to get some attention, be recognized, and at the end of the day, earn some quick keep? It's all seems so easy but it's not. I don't have any experience of this but there are famous bloggers to prove that. God, me imagining doing what they do already gives me stress, and no, I will not put myself through that. I love my little world of life. I have always been trying to find my own style of writing and maybe I have already found it. Take it easy, why give stress to something I like to do? Just write.

 

If by the end of this, you are okay with reading about a life of someone like me, then you are very much welcome. (:

 

 

 

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Nothing in particular

Hey people! I normally like my posts to be structured and organized, focusing on one thing at a time. But today, I just wanna talk about a few things together. 

 Yes, my birthday is in October! Which makes me an October baby. ^^ 

I think what was mentioned in the above picture was really true about myself. 80% of it anyway. I disagree with the last sentence first before you guys can disagree for me okay! Hahaha. I think that's going too far, lol. Even when I read horoscope stuff, there would be this line like 90% of the time. IDK WHY?! Having it in both my birthday month and horoscope should increase my chances of it being real right? 

Definitely do not see myself that way, neither do the people around me. Then again, there may be a twist in the meaning. (hmm...)

Okay, that's not the main point.

I feel like some people who know me are too quick to judge my personality and character, probably because I acted more hyper during my first year in poly. And that's because it was a fresh start and I felt excited. I have started to tone down in year 2. At least I think so. HAHAHA.

Back to the picture. Okay, another sentence that I do not agree with is the 'inner and physical beauty'. Physical maybe a little, haha. when I make the effort to dress up. And I have to thank my parents' genes. Inner, nope. I sometimes think that the inner part of me is hateful - not elaborating.

I really do love to chat with my friends, also h2h talks with my mum. My mum and I can talk for hours and hours even till 2 or 3 a.m. And yep, I love all of them. "Loves to takes things at the centre" - I assume it means having people's attention. Of course I like to be noticed, I'm only human. But I can't cope with it long-term, I'll feel too stressed and just shrink back into the shadows. Which is why I'm pretty invisible at times. 'Lies but doesn't pretend' - I suck at pretending. If I dislike you, it'll show on my face and avoid making any contact with you. On the reverse, I'll just keep on talking and act crazy like everybody does with their close friends."gets angry often' - Very true lol. Erhem, but my temper was really good was in pri sch. I guess bad influences huh ( you guys know who you are ) and puberty. 'Treats friends importantly" - Very true. Friends come directly after family. I think of every friend as a treasure. I won't hesitate to make time for them when I'm free. And at this point, I think even relationships come after them. Lol, so my friends, don't give me that shit about me won't have any time or ignoring you when I'm in a relationship. Unless that guy is worth it.

"Brave and fearless" - I agree with it 100% in the physical sense. Like going on scary rides, haunted houses ( those in amusement parks, for clarification ), scary movies. I want to try bungee jumping and rollercoasters! Rock-climbing is fun! Yea, you get the idea. It's not as if I'm not scared lol. But I think you should try these things in your life. Personally, I get very excited thinking of it. HAHAHA. Even when trying backflips or handstands. There've been times when I nearly injure myself but if I just stop because of that near experience, when will I get to improve? So I get a little fed up with people who won't even give it a try or stop because they see someone nearly get hurt in that experience. What I think is, that person is not me, so even if he or she can't do it, it doesn't mean I can't too.

"Always making friends" - I do like to make friends. Though I think it's tiring sometimes when meeting up because I really want to meet all of them and catch-up. But there's a life to live and sometimes time just doesn't allow it. So I do get a bit frustrated when I can't meet some of them.

"Easily hurt but recovers easily" - Some of my friends and I have a sarcastic way of communicating. It's friendly sarcasm hahaha. I do get hurt by some of their words sometimes but hey, it's our way of communicating, so most of the time I just shoot back with more sarcasm. I don't really show people when I'm hurt lol. And if I tell you that I'm hurt straight up, wow, you must be damn hell of a close person to me.

'Daydreamer' - It's been my habit since forever. Sometimes I just stare into space and think up dramatic stories. Then I'd feel satisfied and come back to reality.

Opinionated - I have a lot of thoughts which I only share to my close friends. I'll be like debating about this and that and trying a lot of  what-if theories.

My mood changes really quickly sometimes. I can be tired, then hyper, or go crazy. I just do when I feel like it. If I'm angry or irritated you'll just hear me ranting about it until I stop feeling that way. I think this also relates to how unpredictable I am sometimes. My friends have told me that I say and do things that shock them. Lolol.

I'm wasn't very fond of physical contacts like hugs and linking of arms with my girlfriends. But I do it with a lot of my friends now after sec sch lolol. It doesn't mean that I'm now totally comfortable with physical contact. And I think that's a barrier if I go into r/s. I can't stand being too touchy-feely all at once. I need to take things step by step. Call me old-fashioned in that sense but I really can't. In fact, I get disgusted if  the progress is too fast. Also, if people get too close to me too quickly, I'll feel very uncomfortable lol. If I take the initiative to do such things, I must feel comfortable with you already. With guy friends, it's even harder lolol. But I try. I'm just not brought up that way. Even when I was younger and my brother, mother and I were in the same room and about to go to bed, my bro would always take the initiative to give a goodnight hug and kiss while I just watch. I don't recall ever giving my mum a kiss? I think once? I'm not comfortable, sorry. Sometimes I feel stressed when some of my friends just hug and I stand there awkwardly lol. I know giving hugs is an expression that shows you care for that person. But I just... Oh well. And if a friend just tries to get closer to me when I'm not ready, I'll back off. Yea, I'll be scared.

I think this roughly sums myself up. Though sometimes I really wonder if I understand myself.

It's 1 more day to mid-sem break!! Finallyyy. So far, year 2 has been like a bullet train so i really need a break to gather myself. Of course, you can't forget that GSS sale is here!! You thinkin' what I'm thinkin'? *wink*

-peace-

P.s. those month photos are were found by one of my friend and sent thru WA so I just put all of it that she sent. It's only for the people in the same WA group, which explains why there are missing months.

Too close to politics

I'm sure you all have heard, the recent uproar on social media. Before I proceed, let me just...

Disclaimer: Nothing in this post means holds any kind of criticism, cyber attack etc., towards anyone/anything. It's really purely my personal thoughts. If you feel uncomfortable reading, please just exit this site in peace. Peace yo! :D

Not like I'm going to specifically comment on each and every single detail like how they pulled out each and every single evidence. Just putting enough information together to give you guys a somewhat whole story of it.  

Okay, now let's continue. 

Short and sweet: It all started with Xiaxue's post on 23rd Dec. She pulled out evidences and statistics to prove that Gushcloud (an influencer marketing network), has been using unethical means to earn money: inflating earnings, cheating clients with fake blogger statistics, masking advertisements, fake Youtube video viewerships, likes and subscribers and doubtful financial reports. With all that she has said, which was so believable with the evidences, the other parties had to say something, right? So the important characters in her post stood out and had their say. Of course with relevant statistics and evidences too.

(This was as short and sweet as I could get)

Below are links to the information that I have read or read enough of to get the whole picture. However, I feel the '*' links are good enough to get the whole picture too. (For y'all lazy people out there. Hahaha.)

Xiaxue*

Kay Kay

Eric Lim

Althea

Gushcloud's blog - Official Response*

After reading those information, I feel that all of them are not wrong in each of their perspectives. After all, they did have concrete evidences to back up what they said. All are true in their own ways. However, all these posts also hit too close to politics - companies, laws and whatnot. There is nothing wrong in standing up for what they believe is the truth, and also nothing wrong with defending themselves with truth that they believe. Lastly, I do feel sorry for everyone involved in this matter. Anyway, who are we to judge what and who is right or wrong? More often than not, no one can really be certain of the truth in such matters. Nobody but the insiders know. Hopefully, things settle down soon.   

Chillax yeah? :P