Hey people! I normally like my posts to be structured and organized, focusing on one thing at a time. But today, I just wanna talk about a few things together.
Yes, my birthday is in October! Which makes me an October baby. ^^
I think what was mentioned in the above picture was really true about myself. 80% of it anyway. I disagree with the last sentence first before you guys can disagree for me okay! Hahaha. I think that's going too far, lol. Even when I read horoscope stuff, there would be this line like 90% of the time. IDK WHY?! Having it in both my birthday month and horoscope should increase my chances of it being real right?
Definitely do not see myself that way, neither do the people around me. Then again, there may be a twist in the meaning. (hmm...)
Okay, that's not the main point.
I feel like some people who know me are too quick to judge my personality and character, probably because I acted more hyper during my first year in poly. And that's because it was a fresh start and I felt excited. I have started to tone down in year 2. At least I think so. HAHAHA.
Back to the picture. Okay, another sentence that I do not agree with is the 'inner and physical beauty'. Physical maybe a little, haha. when I make the effort to dress up. And I have to thank my parents' genes. Inner, nope. I sometimes think that the inner part of me is hateful - not elaborating.
I really do love to chat with my friends, also h2h talks with my mum. My mum and I can talk for hours and hours even till 2 or 3 a.m. And yep, I love all of them. "Loves to takes things at the centre" - I assume it means having people's attention. Of course I like to be noticed, I'm only human. But I can't cope with it long-term, I'll feel too stressed and just shrink back into the shadows. Which is why I'm pretty invisible at times. 'Lies but doesn't pretend' - I suck at pretending. If I dislike you, it'll show on my face and avoid making any contact with you. On the reverse, I'll just keep on talking and act crazy like everybody does with their close friends."gets angry often' - Very true lol. Erhem, but my temper was really good was in pri sch. I guess bad influences huh ( you guys know who you are ) and puberty. 'Treats friends importantly" - Very true. Friends come directly after family. I think of every friend as a treasure. I won't hesitate to make time for them when I'm free. And at this point, I think even relationships come after them. Lol, so my friends, don't give me that shit about me won't have any time or ignoring you when I'm in a relationship. Unless that guy is worth it.
"Brave and fearless" - I agree with it 100% in the physical sense. Like going on scary rides, haunted houses ( those in amusement parks, for clarification ), scary movies. I want to try bungee jumping and rollercoasters! Rock-climbing is fun! Yea, you get the idea. It's not as if I'm not scared lol. But I think you should try these things in your life. Personally, I get very excited thinking of it. HAHAHA. Even when trying backflips or handstands. There've been times when I nearly injure myself but if I just stop because of that near experience, when will I get to improve? So I get a little fed up with people who won't even give it a try or stop because they see someone nearly get hurt in that experience. What I think is, that person is not me, so even if he or she can't do it, it doesn't mean I can't too.
"Always making friends" - I do like to make friends. Though I think it's tiring sometimes when meeting up because I really want to meet all of them and catch-up. But there's a life to live and sometimes time just doesn't allow it. So I do get a bit frustrated when I can't meet some of them.
"Easily hurt but recovers easily" - Some of my friends and I have a sarcastic way of communicating. It's friendly sarcasm hahaha. I do get hurt by some of their words sometimes but hey, it's our way of communicating, so most of the time I just shoot back with more sarcasm. I don't really show people when I'm hurt lol. And if I tell you that I'm hurt straight up, wow, you must be damn hell of a close person to me.
'Daydreamer' - It's been my habit since forever. Sometimes I just stare into space and think up dramatic stories. Then I'd feel satisfied and come back to reality.
Opinionated - I have a lot of thoughts which I only share to my close friends. I'll be like debating about this and that and trying a lot of what-if theories.
My mood changes really quickly sometimes. I can be tired, then hyper, or go crazy. I just do when I feel like it. If I'm angry or irritated you'll just hear me ranting about it until I stop feeling that way. I think this also relates to how unpredictable I am sometimes. My friends have told me that I say and do things that shock them. Lolol.
I'm wasn't very fond of physical contacts like hugs and linking of arms with my girlfriends. But I do it with a lot of my friends now after sec sch lolol. It doesn't mean that I'm now totally comfortable with physical contact. And I think that's a barrier if I go into r/s. I can't stand being too touchy-feely all at once. I need to take things step by step. Call me old-fashioned in that sense but I really can't. In fact, I get disgusted if the progress is too fast. Also, if people get too close to me too quickly, I'll feel very uncomfortable lol. If I take the initiative to do such things, I must feel comfortable with you already. With guy friends, it's even harder lolol. But I try. I'm just not brought up that way. Even when I was younger and my brother, mother and I were in the same room and about to go to bed, my bro would always take the initiative to give a goodnight hug and kiss while I just watch. I don't recall ever giving my mum a kiss? I think once? I'm not comfortable, sorry. Sometimes I feel stressed when some of my friends just hug and I stand there awkwardly lol. I know giving hugs is an expression that shows you care for that person. But I just... Oh well. And if a friend just tries to get closer to me when I'm not ready, I'll back off. Yea, I'll be scared.
I think this roughly sums myself up. Though sometimes I really wonder if I understand myself.
It's 1 more day to mid-sem break!! Finallyyy. So far, year 2 has been like a bullet train so i really need a break to gather myself. Of course, you can't forget that GSS sale is here!! You thinkin' what I'm thinkin'? *wink*
-peace-
P.s. those month photos are were found by one of my friend and sent thru WA so I just put all of it that she sent. It's only for the people in the same WA group, which explains why there are missing months.
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